Paradise's views

Current Location: At my new desk
How I feel: tired
What's on: Queen of the Silver Dollar

  The girl child has been found.  Well, she was found a couple weeks ago but apparently the post I did that said that already didn't actually get posted.  It's been that kind of month.

  She actually turned up in the usual way for her.  Mom got a call that said... She's been arrested, is refusing to contact you, and is at YES.  That's the Youth Emergency Shelter for those of you who didn't grow up in Edmonton.  Social services is keeping her, she's safe, and she has called Mom collect since her arrest.

  My darling daughter has been living with a guy in Calgary who was under the impression her name was Crystal McKay and she was 25.  24 when they moved in together.  Which was right after she left here.  They met on Lavalife.  I knew I didn't like on-line dating services for a reason.

  Anyway, she is alive, and well, and safe somewhere in Edmonton.  Working or not.  Still using the name Crystal McKay.  She hates me and everyone else except Mom apparently but especially me.  But that's normal too.  She's also accusing Failed Bard of damaging her shoulder to the point she needs a replacement.  But, I don't think anyone believes that, except possibly her.  Of course, with her problems who knows what she knows.

  If I actually talk to her I'll find out.

Current Location: The front desk
How I feel: contemplative
What's on: stuff

Not that I think that's news to anyone, but it does.

So, the real life update first, then the one that people would rather read, and update on one of my stories.

So, in real life I've been asked to leave my position effective the 15th of February.  That  would be next Thursday but they still owe me five days of paid holidays so Sunday is my last day and I get paid to not go into work for the last week.  But that's actually okay, I've been expecting this for a while and I'm actually not too worried about it.  I've been half-assed looking for another job since about November because I'm really not happy here anyway.  It's not the work exactly.  It's a combination of things, mainly the fact that I'm supposed to be here at some ungodly hour of the morning and I'm not allowed to do anything manager-like.  I can hire people and fire people, so long as it's only housekeepers, but I'm not really allowed to do anything else.  Pick up the odd thing here and there so long as it doesn't come to much but I'm not allowed to really buy anything for the hotel, I'm not allowed to do anything more than small local advertising, everything has to be approved by the owners anyway.  It got very frustrating once the novelty of being able to say "I'm the manager" wore off.

And I hate mornings.  I have less trouble waking up and going to work on a night shift than I do on a morning shift.  I've felt run-down and sick for months and there's nothing I can do about it because it's from lack of decent sleep and I'm just tired.  So I'm planning on...

And I did actually stop and think about what I was going to do.  Amazing as that might sound.  I've decided to take one day, probably one of my paid days, and go up to Athabasca and talk to the councilors at Athabasca University, where I am registered as a student going for my B.Sc. in Computer Programming and Languages.  But I basically screwed up with my first two courses and you have to have both of them to go onto any of the interesting courses so I'm basically screwed.  So I'm going to go in and petition to start completely over.  Take the two courses I screwed up on over again, shouldn't be a problem I'm not even on the same hard drive anymore, and then go on to the rest of the course, preferably with the full five years left to work on it.  I'll have to get student loans to cover the cost of the courses themselves but I think working part time will give me enough money to keep my bills under control so I won't need the living expenses part of it.  But I'll apply for the whole amount, because, why not?  It's a lot easier not to have to worry about the bills and I only need a little over a thousand dollars a month to cover living expenses.

After I find out about the course, because there's no point in applying for the loans if I can't take the course, I'll go into Whitecourt and Barrhead and apply for a couple of night audit jobs.  I'm not interested in working days and I'm not particularly interested in working afternoons, but I'll do those if I have to, on either a part time or a full time basis.  Part time to start if they'll let me start over and I think I'll get the loans I need to cover the courses.  I can't do it on my own, I tried.  I just ended up getting further and further behind on the payments because there were so many other things that I wanted to buy.

But only working part time I think I can keep that bit of spending under control.  There are a lot of things I still want to buy, but I think I'm finally satisfied with the things I own and, other than books and the odd movie, there's really nothing I feel the need to buy.  Now if only I could pay all my bills on a part time job anyway...
Oh, wait, I probably can.  But that wouldn't leave me any spending money at all.

We'll see.  I think I'm to the point where I'm satisfied with how my life is going and I'm content.

Current Location: Somewhere South of Sanity
How I feel: mellow
What's on: She never cried

A dozen white roses, your favourite kind,
But they’re not enough to change your mind.
I have one last chance to prove I’m true,
So listen, just listen, to what I’ll do.

For you and only you I’ll take a white rose
And touch it to the sky as morning glows.
For a rose of blue so innocent and true
A promise of new beginnings from me to you

Or for you, and you alone, I’ll take a rose of white
And touch it to a midnight sky full of starlight
A blue so dark with starlights shimmer
A hint of old delights to make it glimmer

Now make your choice, take your pick
It’s up to you, so make it quick
Morning glow or starlit night
New beginnings or old delights?